A little over a month later... by Jen Murillo

I'm the worst at this. There was a time where I would write every single thing that happened to me in the day. I have loads of journals, every thought and every moment are documented. Now I have to remind myself to write, to write on here. I think that it's mostly because I feel like I don't have much to say, I really do much anyways. 

Regardless, its been a crazy month and a half. I was "homeless" for 3 weeks due to my lease ending before my move in date. It honestly sucked. Moving things into 3 peoples basements just to move it all again in three weeks really really sucks. Since there was no way in hell I was going to sleep on anyways couch, be in anyones space, for 3 weeks. I ended up only doing it for a week though, shout out to Sarah and Jakob for being amazing human beings. 

The first two weeks I spent in Connecticut. I used this time to visit my mom, dad, and all the other important people. It was the perfect amount of time to be home and luckily my job let me work from home so I didn't skip a beat! It's always so good to go home and be surrounded by the people I love. It honestly makes me want to move back sometimes but I don't think I ever could. First of all, I love Columbus. It's seriously a hidden gem. Second of all, I would never move back there unless I had a secure job. It's just way to expensive. I live in New York City district so shit gets crazy and I don't want to be living in my childhood bedroom. 

I have to remind myself that I do have things to say, I am living. I mean hell, just last month I drove to CT, picked up my best friend Ashley, we then drove up to Massachusetts to surprise our friend Nina for the weekend. Damn, just last weekend I was in Cincinnati for a Taking Back Sunday concert and my roommate Hailey and I ended up making it a day trip and stopped by Yellow Springs. We even drove to Kentucky, which was soo random. I just need to keep on keeping on and things are gonna work out for the best. 

So here are photos from my last few weeks, Massachusetts, Connecticut, Ohio, and faces I love.

July in the rain... by Jen Murillo

It has been raining like crazy recently and the days are still gorgeous.

I haven't been shooting much, just hoping inspiration will strike. I mostly think about the zine and how to improve it, how to make it stand out from the rest...

I had a spontaneous shoot with my friend, and talented artist, Travis! It was the first time I had shot in months and of course it felt great! Art always feels good, and that is are reminder that God and the Universe gave to me as I walked my friends pup in a neighborhood I'm not familiar with. 

I will post photos from my little shoot with Travis later this week! In the meantime please send me happy positive inspiration filled vibes! I will cherish them so much. <3 

Reality Bites by Jen Murillo

I recently went out and ran into a lot of people, friends, old classmates, besides it being a grand time because i got to see wonderful and awesome people, it was actually kind of sad for me. Every time someone asked me how my art was going I'd have no real response. my art is on pause? I have no inspiration? How did I even get to this point? My art was where I could runaway to and now its just a reminder of what a failure I feel. Everyone keeps reminding me that its only been a year since I graduated and that I'm actually doing more than a lot of people but I don't feel that. I feel like I should at least be in a better place than I am now. Of course I remind myself that I did basically take a year off and that I need to stop being so hard on myself but I'm stubborn.

Since I haven't made any really art recently, here are scanned photos from Hocking Hills.

Hocking Hills by Jen Murillo

Yesterday I visited Hocking Hills, a state park in Ohio. I have only been once before so I was super excited to visit again! Especially after hearing they opened a new trail. Two friends joined me and it was honestly a blast. I feel so lucky to live so close to such beautiful land. I brought my instamax and will be scanning that film soon! For now I just have some iphone photos I took. Wish I had brought my camera but the batteries were dead, just my luck. 

 

14 days left... by Jen Murillo

It's May 1st, which means in 13 days it will be my one year since I graduated college, how insane is that. A year went by way to fast. This year turned into an unofficial year off and I have 13 days left until I get back to work. I spent the day at the park today reading self help books to help me get my shit together and just being with nature. 

Heres to the future, may it be full of inspiration and sucess. 

This week by Jen Murillo

I've been trying to be more active on instagram. It's really hard for me since I'm not too big on social media. I feel like I just don't have the spark to get tons of followers. lol. I'm working on it, I'm working on some new projects so this is when it'll start becoming easier for me to work the social media circit. Right now all I have to offer is pictures of dogs and flowers. Follow me tho, dogs are worth the follow. 

I don't even know. by Jen Murillo

So I basically took a break after college and my one year is coming up. I've been excited to get back to work but I don't feel ready. There is so much I want to do but I don't know where to begin, how to begin. Not to pull the blame card but sometimes I blame m anxiety, I just get so anxious and then stuck, I don't talk, and I just all around close up. And I am sick of it. Of course I can trust that my art will always be there at my darkest times, but then why have I felt so uninspired. Regardless, like I said, I am excited to get back to work. I should hopefully be getting my excuse my language, shit together soon or at least kinda kick it off...

23 by Jen Murillo

This past week was my birthday, I have officially walked this planet for 23 years. It's crazy how time passes by in a blink of an eye. I remember being in elementary school and seeing the 8th graders and think how it seemed forever away, how could I ever wait that long? and now its way passed 8th grade, its a year after all school is completed and I'm 23. Just like that and time is only going to keep on speeding up...

As any birthday would it really couldn't help but think about what I bring to this world, I came up with nothing. I need to change that. Today is my cats birthday I wonder if she feels the same.

Happy 3rd birthday to my beloved ShitFloyd. You are the best thing in my life. (Not photographed below)

Clintonville adventures... by Jen Murillo

The other night I was way to awake to call the night so I went on a walk. On this walk I stumbled upon my friend stumbling out of some bushes, she joined me on my walk and we decided to show me this cool bridge. I almost died a few times since I was not wearing the right shoes for this walk at all but I'm glad I did it! Sadly I only had my iphone but I still took some shots, but now I have a new location for a future shoot! ;D 

 

 

Finally got around to scanning some Fujifilm by Jen Murillo

My mom bought me a Fujifilm Instax Mini for Christmas, I absolutely love it. I've always been a fan of instant cameras, Sadly I don't use my polaroid camera much since film is so expensive. I got a chance to scan some of the photos I've taken with it so far. This week on my instagram I started to share some of the photos. 

I've had so much fun taken photos of my friends, below is my nephew Cash, son of my beloved best friend Ashley. I was able to visit the two when I visit back home for Christmas. The second photo is the last photograph I took in 2016, a portrait of my friend and roommate, Hailey! She is wonderful and I absolutely loved this photo of her. The last photo is a photograph of my friend Clay, we stumbled upon a bar and played some pool and darts, always a good time. :) 

My birthday is coming up and I'm hoping I will be gifted some more film, regradless I will be buying more! ;)